Monday

The Day I Woke Up

I was trippin over losing you
Never deserved to have my undying love
The way you made me feel
Like I was on top of the world

Had me checking for you
Like I was a dope fiend looking for crack
My heart open and watch my love
Spill out at your feet
Walked all over me without a second thought
We would be down for life
I
Musta
Been
Trippin

I caught myself peeking in your window
Hoping you’d see me and smile and invite
Me back into your life
Ain’t all I thought I
Was missing something that you somehow added
Nothing to me that wasn’t already there

I can’t believe I was acting like a stalker
The thought of it now even sounds ludicrous
For me to even refer to you as a friend
You couldn’t have been thinking straight
Out the door you went without a pause.

I shoulda seen it coming.

Almost a year now and I still
Just don’t get how having last name Cheney in your bed
Meant more to you than something that was
All together true.

Maybe I was blind from the get
Me a long handled spoon for this medicine
Made me stronger than I
Needed you to go so I could see what was in me
Instead of being treated like I was an extension of you
Know God always shows forth the truth
Has set me free.

13 comments:

Torrance Stephens bka All-Mi-T said...

How the song go "..i found someone to take away my pain. Dang a new poet laurete (sp)

Mizrepresent said...

That was deep brotha Rich...but i'm feeling it.

Don said...

Good stuff. The kinda poem that made me hold my breathe while reading it.

You're on a roll.

Don said...

Question: was Cheney someone you knew?

Mega Rich said...

@Don - what is the Vice Presidents first name? I used Cheney trying to be clever.

CapCity said...

yea, this had me thrown - is this your love poem to the Clintons who so many "negroes" thought were "down" for "the people"? but they're showing who they are NOW! Obama GOT 'em SHAKIN'!! LOL!

Eb the Celeb said...

its ok to be a stalker.... but the fact that you know your a stalker put you on the right side of that thin line that puts you borderline crazy

lmao @ Don's question

MysTery said...

I have felt this before.

Nashe' said...

ouch ~ been there...

hope u feel better ...

love is such a knife at times...

~livewell ~b strong

Don said...

@ rich house: lol. You got me there. Smooth.

Sojourner G said...

Yeah man...the journey is often long, difficult and fraught with insecurity and second guessing, trips and falls, but thank God for arriving at the destination!

Opinionated Diva said...

In hindsight we can all say "I shoulda seen it coming", but the bottom line is that you atleast "woke up"...some remain blind pretending they don't see what's right in front of them.

Nice piece.

Lovebabz said...

Oh the pain of it all. Well I guess I can certainly say I am in good company. I appreciate your willingness to share this part of your life. Thanks. No I do not get pleasure from it, but I do go away with a connection. Happier days and strong love-ties ahead.